If tryingtryingtrying is not working - stop.
Radical honesty + radical acceptance = peace.
This is the situation.
These are my thoughts about it.
These are my feelings about it.
Now, what if it never changes?
What if I stay X forever?
What if I chose to relax into it?
What if I stopped trying to change it?
What if this is what I had planned all along?
Feel the immediate resistance, the refusal, the NO, to accepting the unacceptable and stay with it long enough (can be weeks) to start feeling glimmers of love and compassion for the whole bucket of things.
Fighting is NOT working, so there's nothing to lose from loving what's here now.
There's nothing to lose by saying this is the reality and...
part of me thinks the reality sucks
part of me is getting something out if it
part of me delights in the chemicals of chaos
part of me loves the safety of wallowing in woe
part of me knows there's more available
part of me refuses to choose it
part of me is willing to accept all of life as it is
I wonder how I can accept this as it is now.
I wonder what would happen if I allowed myself to stop struggling.
I wonder how I can relax even in the war zone of my mind.
I wonder how I let go of trying to change or fix myself to shift this unacceptable reality.
Show me what's joyful here.
Show me what's pleasant here.
Show me the benefits of being right here right now.
I wonder how I become aware of, and listen to, the part of me that's enjoying the unacceptable reality and the struggle to make it different than it is?
I wonder how I choose peace with duality and find wonder in madness?
When escape is blocked, acceptance is the key to freedom.
Acceptance is NOT resignation, martyrdom, or collapse. There is no fuck it or victim energy in radical acceptance.
Acceptance opens space for clear sight, understanding, and a level of compassion you may have never felt for yourself before.
However, you can't play the hidden agenda - ok, I'll accept this [and then it will finally change] - game. It doesn’t work that way, and when you try to fly under the radar of energy like that, Mind builds more evidence for See? I can’t even make this work! Nothing ever works for me!
Acceptance may bring a bag of grief along with it, so surrender, grieve, all some time for acceptance to become real and rich.
Until acceptance is embodied down deep on a daily basis, the internal war continues to generate more of the same externally.
Play with this today.
You have nothing to lose but your suffering.
XO,
LMW