When I look at my Human Design chart, I’m a Projector with a 3/5 profile and Mental Authority. In the Sidereal version, I’m a Manifesting Generator, 1/3 profile with Emotional Authority. This explains some things, such as why life goes better for me when I treat my decision-making as if I have Emotional Authority, which I accidentally discovered. But also, I found out later that those with Mental Authority can have a better time of it if they wait and wait some more before committing to a course of action, so that’s no explanation.
But the Manifesting Generator type feels very familiar to me. I often try to act like one and end up sick. Right now, I’m nearly a month into illness with COVID-19 immediately followed by an atrocious head cold. We could say that MG life feels like home to me because I had an MG parent, but I think there are more layers to this than conditioned response.
There are loads of battles in the Human Design world, just as in the Astrology world (just as there are wherever humans gather) over which system view is true. Sidereal vs Tropical. Whole Sign vs. Placidus. 13 signs vs. ugh, it’s too tiring to write more of that. I suggest we try both/and-ing these systems.
What if we consider that Sidereal is who we’ve been? And Tropical is who we are meant to become?
I do identify a lot with Manifesting Generators and frequently am mistaken for one by people who form opinions of me based on social media activity. Yet, life isn’t intended to be a rerun of other lifetimes.
This life is an adventurous exploration, not of the paths we’ve previously trod but of the undiscovered roads. Isn’t it? Shouldn’t it be?
When I live my life as who I have been, it all ends in tears. When I live my life, trying on the new character of Projector, all difficulties are resolved, and I have the energy to deal with any difficulties that remain.
To drag this over into Astrology, I’ve never really felt like a Scorpio (Tropical) but more like a Libra (Sideral). Again, Libra is familiar, cozy, and easy to do. And yet Death, Rebirth, Transformation, and Shadow are the realms where I’m repeatedly dragged off to, kicking and resisting, but when I embrace those Scorpio archetypes as learning opportunities, funny enough - life works.
The new roads we’re meant to walk aren’t easy - there are brambles, pit traps, roots, and rocks to fall into and trip over. Strange animals call from the woods, and the light through the leaves looks strange, foreign, and confusing. And also, we have free will - we can keep trying to stay on the groomed, smooth, and unchallenging path, but at a steep price.
We pay the heavy price of dynamic life force energy with nowhere to go. Our lives turn in on themselves. We wander and wail about how nothing works, nothing satisfies, and we exist as pale paper dolls flapping and twisting in a stale, boring breeze.
If you’re new to Human Design, and even if you’ve been around awhile, beware of falling into its THIS way trap. Maybe it is, but more likely it isn’t, and I always come back to if we want to play the “But Ra said,” game: Ra said Human Design is an experiment, and so it’s already built in to resist attempts to turn the system into dogma.
All this to say, if you’ve had trouble identifying with your Human Design chart, try exploring the sidereal version and notice if it feels like home and if you prefer it over your Tropical version.
Then, contemplate that the feeling of “there’s no place like home” can be a trap, and Dorothy was much better off after the tornado swept her out of the familiar and into the adventure of a lifetime. And if you think she returned home the same Dorothy she was before, you’ve got another think coming.
XO,
LMW